really need help for a reliable hacker!

listen to my point. Most people join this community to earning money or benefit but I don‘t.
to be honest, i‘m not quite desperate.
I really need help for referral for a reliable hacker for TG IG FB whatsapp emails.
I understand we might talk about invading people’s privacy here.
I am not going to harm anyone. I only need to access to my ex bf account as I have potential nude video and photo spreadout by him.
I got block/ban from all his social media/communication acct without any big fights last week.
I can’t even contact him or talk to him now (maybe mailing a letter now will work).
I got scammed by diff hacker numerous time last week. I just learn how to use cypto to pay, i just learn how to access onion browser, I just learn a lot of new terms last week including joining DNA community.
I search up most of the old forums and it is mainly for teaching people how to hack. I didn‘t even learn computer 101, it will take me another 3 months or so to pick up. everyday i spend at least 2-3 hours at night to search and learn. i can‘t sleep and i hope i can get back my photo/video peacefully.
If any white/grey/black hat can assist me. This will be my upcoming X’mas gift.
my contact is kittybomb@mail2tor.com and I will only pay the service via Escrow.